i have to admit. i've always wanted the perfect family. you know the type of family where everyone gets along? and theres love in every corner. and you never witness a family fight in your life? that you only see fights in movies? i don't think anyone's ever had that. everyone has fights. and its not an exception for me either. i may get that alot more than "normal" families, but i don't mind. because in my mind, we're a happy family, and every single family member in my family. is. accepted. and they don't bitch behind each other's backs. the funny thing is, i cry everytime a family member of mine is crying. ha. i don't know if i'm a weirdo or simply just a freak. i know other people have worse cases in family than mine, but i've never experienced it in their life, so i don't know. whether mine is a happy family or not. as they say it, ugly family business stays behind the door. nobody ever sees it. and probably never will. all i know is this, some people are really lucky. and some are not. i don't know whether i'm lucky or not. at least i have a family. but sometimes it just doesn't feel like a family.