Saturday, February 27, 2010
what's wrong with me? i bet everyone's probably asked themselves that question. oh. i don't know. at least 100 times. to date, i'm sure i've asked myself that question, more than 1000 times. and last friday proved that everything is wrong with me. i feel as if i make the world a worser place, than it already may be ?
everything doesn't seem to make sense, as it always used to be. i've always thought i would never be the one thats gonna be in fights. but now. it seems as if i'm the big bad bitch.
why don't you just chuck a spaz and throw stuff at me? if thats gonna make it any better.
i feel like the wicked witch of the west, as well as being the little boy in the boy who cried wolf. where people won't just believe what you say. to be honest, i don't know who to talk to anymore. i feel as if some people were never my friends and just felt as if they had to be "nice" to me. cause it was compulsory. i might've just hurt some friends because i simply am confuse. and i really want to apologize. but the certain people that just won't believe me anymore.
i'm disappointed. among mixed feelings. i want to get this sorted out, but everything seems to be against me atm.
i'm tired of this mess.
everything doesn't seem to make sense, as it always used to be. i've always thought i would never be the one thats gonna be in fights. but now. it seems as if i'm the big bad bitch.
why don't you just chuck a spaz and throw stuff at me? if thats gonna make it any better.
i feel like the wicked witch of the west, as well as being the little boy in the boy who cried wolf. where people won't just believe what you say. to be honest, i don't know who to talk to anymore. i feel as if some people were never my friends and just felt as if they had to be "nice" to me. cause it was compulsory. i might've just hurt some friends because i simply am confuse. and i really want to apologize. but the certain people that just won't believe me anymore.
i'm disappointed. among mixed feelings. i want to get this sorted out, but everything seems to be against me atm.
i'm tired of this mess.
♥babyee
2:50 AM
2:50 AM
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
and yes. today was penrith high school's 2022 summit. and i had lots of fun, and also made me realised how much a job may mean, to a person. i should know. i got rejected from maccas :L
i was with anna squared and erica, and we were talking about youth employment with the other leaders and stuff. and we're in the hall. talking :L
everyone's having fun. and i guess thinking about lot of things. things that are actually very important to the world. and how sometimes its really hard to get a job. and among other issues. such as. global warming? i think that was one. and economics.
so what made me think more is that. sometimes bosses chooses more "abled" people that disabled people. and how the government may have to fork out thousands for people that are unemployed. and maybe how our generation. may be really just picky when it comes to jobs. we don't want this. or that. its a big issue, and i shiver to think for the people that have to face that problem everyday. e.g. the government people.
so heres a blog entry to say thank yous :)
and just a reminder :L nadal <3
i was with anna squared and erica, and we were talking about youth employment with the other leaders and stuff. and we're in the hall. talking :L
everyone's having fun. and i guess thinking about lot of things. things that are actually very important to the world. and how sometimes its really hard to get a job. and among other issues. such as. global warming? i think that was one. and economics.
so what made me think more is that. sometimes bosses chooses more "abled" people that disabled people. and how the government may have to fork out thousands for people that are unemployed. and maybe how our generation. may be really just picky when it comes to jobs. we don't want this. or that. its a big issue, and i shiver to think for the people that have to face that problem everyday. e.g. the government people.
so heres a blog entry to say thank yous :)
and just a reminder :L nadal <3
♥babyee
2:13 AM
2:13 AM
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
dayumm. if only i could be shakira :L but nah. i can still obsess over. :Dmy enjoyment now to you guys. enjoy :)
just a reminder for me to get the song. AND the video.
when it comes out. april 2010 people!
♥babyee
2:25 AM
2:25 AM
Monday, February 22, 2010
in one word. HOT.
nadal! doesn't own his own jet plane! isn't that awesome! he takes commercial class. :L
♥babyee
2:09 AM
2:09 AM
Saturday, February 20, 2010
remember how i had this totally nice blog about my sister? well, i changed my mind. she can be such a bitch sometimes. and no, its not like she's psming or anything. cause she's like that. ALL. THE. TIME.
i think its in her nature to be harsh to everyone, sure. she can be very very nice and caring sometimes. but that's very rare. it's like. the sisters you see in movies that'll will chop their heart off and give it to their needy sister? i've never actually. seen one. minus anne and sarah. they don't count. they just have a very close family. its not fair :L
but she goes on to say how i put her things not in a pile. i mean. its IN A PILE.how MUCH MORE DO YOU WANT ME TO DO? NUMBER THEM? COLOUR COORDINATE THEM?
you think about yourself before anyone. all the time. i know that i'm not perfect either. but i know that. and doesn't think that i'm perfect.
i'm so pissed.
but. the exciting news. did you know that TOP use to be a chubby little boy? i know D:
BUT that makes me even love him more. -sighh-
oh wells. not as much as nadal though :L
♥babyee
2:33 AM
2:33 AM
Friday, February 19, 2010
hell no. i don't wanna go to boston. its a stupid song. singing how he wants to go to boston. i don't get it.
i'm only on blogspot cause jason was "complaining" about how anna just totally forgot to mention him in her all thanks people entry. and while i have another 11 page report to write, i just can't escape myself and stop myself from typing www.blogspot.com and signing in. its addictive. i have to admit, and i don't even know who the hell's reading it. probably no one. but i'm fine with that.and here's the thing. i like blogspot more than facebook D:
SHOCK. FAINT. OMGAHness.
i think anna z would probably be like. urg. thats so weird D:
but i dunno. guess i'm over the all facebook you talk i talk thing. its just not. as appealing to me as before now. like, if i don't go on facebook i'll totally die thing.
i'm not antisocial, but i don't see the point, of going on something that i. just. don't. get. excited. over. like, fb is a total dream when it comes to checking out stuff, but yeah.
you get the point.
i just spent half an hour trying to get taeyang and thelma aoyama's song. but failed.
oh wells.
x
haha. still. nadal <3
i'm only on blogspot cause jason was "complaining" about how anna just totally forgot to mention him in her all thanks people entry. and while i have another 11 page report to write, i just can't escape myself and stop myself from typing www.blogspot.com and signing in. its addictive. i have to admit, and i don't even know who the hell's reading it. probably no one. but i'm fine with that.and here's the thing. i like blogspot more than facebook D:
SHOCK. FAINT. OMGAHness.
i think anna z would probably be like. urg. thats so weird D:
but i dunno. guess i'm over the all facebook you talk i talk thing. its just not. as appealing to me as before now. like, if i don't go on facebook i'll totally die thing.
i'm not antisocial, but i don't see the point, of going on something that i. just. don't. get. excited. over. like, fb is a total dream when it comes to checking out stuff, but yeah.
you get the point.
i just spent half an hour trying to get taeyang and thelma aoyama's song. but failed.
oh wells.
x
haha. still. nadal <3
♥babyee
3:06 AM
3:06 AM
Thursday, February 18, 2010
that's right people. i did it! caught the RIGHT bus, and got off at the right stop. i won't bore you with the details, but the main thing is that i did it. and piano was quite good, quite enjoyable, since i am DETERMINED to pass. and with a B. at least. :L
anyways, i have like. a thousand and one things to do. and this is just a quick entry to say that i've done it. and glad that i tried :)
oh. btw. anna z told me something awesome today.
" did you know that together is like. to be together you have to get her?"
its cute. :)
x
anyways, i have like. a thousand and one things to do. and this is just a quick entry to say that i've done it. and glad that i tried :)
oh. btw. anna z told me something awesome today.
" did you know that together is like. to be together you have to get her?"
its cute. :)
x
♥babyee
1:51 AM
1:51 AM
Monday, February 15, 2010
that's right bitchaesss. its all about sisterly love here.
i'll start from the beginning. i have my 7th grade piano exam, soon. or 9 weeks later. so i need extra piano lessons. I REALLY NEED TO PASS. I EMPHASIZE THAT!
so obviously i have to take the bus to nora's place, since like. no one can take me there. i had to swap time with my bro's friend so they don't have to wait for a hour to take me home. i have to wait. no problemo.
so we got on the bus. 523! AND we looked at the stops, wondering where we get off. and we saw a bus stop, similar looking to my teacher's place. and louise was like, thats our stop.
me: no its not. no way.
bus leaves
me: hey it was our stop!
louise: idiot.
basically thats what happened, and we got off. two stops after that stop. don't ask me why we didn't get straight off. cause of my stupidness to realise things to late >.>
we walked. for almost an hour before we got to nora's house. we crossed this really really really busy highway, and if you know me, you usually know that i scream even if i cross a carpark, with NO cars. but louise held on to my arm, and ran. :)
we walked for so long, and she knew i was tired. she told me to wait and she'll check ahead. but then i got scared. ( FOR HER) and ran to louise.
after all that time, and louise actually needed to go to westfield to buy stuff for her assignments, the shops close by the time we got there. but she wasn't upset. just told me to help her.
so this is the thing, i really hope i get on the right bus tomorrow, and know WHEN TO GET OFF! otherwise today would've been a waste of time. its all for now. just and entry to say how much i love my sister. sometimes :L
and all my roses are dead D: except for the yellow one, probably cause its still a bud and i peeled the dead bits off. mum still thinks its alive.
and nadal <3
i actually have a really funny story involving louise, me and a strawberry chapstick. and i have pictures and everything. but i really gotta study piano knowledge and do my work.
<3
i'll start from the beginning. i have my 7th grade piano exam, soon. or 9 weeks later. so i need extra piano lessons. I REALLY NEED TO PASS. I EMPHASIZE THAT!
so obviously i have to take the bus to nora's place, since like. no one can take me there. i had to swap time with my bro's friend so they don't have to wait for a hour to take me home. i have to wait. no problemo.
so we got on the bus. 523! AND we looked at the stops, wondering where we get off. and we saw a bus stop, similar looking to my teacher's place. and louise was like, thats our stop.
me: no its not. no way.
bus leaves
me: hey it was our stop!
louise: idiot.
basically thats what happened, and we got off. two stops after that stop. don't ask me why we didn't get straight off. cause of my stupidness to realise things to late >.>
we walked. for almost an hour before we got to nora's house. we crossed this really really really busy highway, and if you know me, you usually know that i scream even if i cross a carpark, with NO cars. but louise held on to my arm, and ran. :)
we walked for so long, and she knew i was tired. she told me to wait and she'll check ahead. but then i got scared. ( FOR HER) and ran to louise.
after all that time, and louise actually needed to go to westfield to buy stuff for her assignments, the shops close by the time we got there. but she wasn't upset. just told me to help her.
so this is the thing, i really hope i get on the right bus tomorrow, and know WHEN TO GET OFF! otherwise today would've been a waste of time. its all for now. just and entry to say how much i love my sister. sometimes :L
and all my roses are dead D: except for the yellow one, probably cause its still a bud and i peeled the dead bits off. mum still thinks its alive.
and nadal <3
i actually have a really funny story involving louise, me and a strawberry chapstick. and i have pictures and everything. but i really gotta study piano knowledge and do my work.
<3
♥babyee
2:07 AM
2:07 AM
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
okok. i know i'm not suppose to blog while i have like. a thousand and ten things to do, but this i really have to.
HAPPY CHINESE YEAR BDAY MUM :)
as well as anna :L
i hope you two have a great day ! :)
okok. i wrote that message like, 40 minutes ago, and then mum was in the shower. she screamed out that there was no hot water and told me to go tell dad. so dad went outside to fix it. couldn't fix it. mum freakin just not caring, and saying how she had to shower in cold water. and my dad screamed at us cause we went in the house with dirty feet.
like. total no biggie. i just wish my rents would chillax. its no big deal. so don't scream at your kids. life's a bitch and i wish sometimes that it'd be better.
i'm telling howin to go to bed now and i'm cutting up his homework for him :) and i wrote shitless worthless words for my history homework so lets home miss doesn't check.
i really gotta sleep. touch was tiring and tutoring was tiring. i dunno why no one would give Me a break >.>
but anyways.
HAPPY BDAY ANNA :L
HAPPY CHINESE YEAR BDAY MUM :)
as well as anna :L
i hope you two have a great day ! :)
okok. i wrote that message like, 40 minutes ago, and then mum was in the shower. she screamed out that there was no hot water and told me to go tell dad. so dad went outside to fix it. couldn't fix it. mum freakin just not caring, and saying how she had to shower in cold water. and my dad screamed at us cause we went in the house with dirty feet.
like. total no biggie. i just wish my rents would chillax. its no big deal. so don't scream at your kids. life's a bitch and i wish sometimes that it'd be better.
i'm telling howin to go to bed now and i'm cutting up his homework for him :) and i wrote shitless worthless words for my history homework so lets home miss doesn't check.
i really gotta sleep. touch was tiring and tutoring was tiring. i dunno why no one would give Me a break >.>
but anyways.
HAPPY BDAY ANNA :L
♥babyee
3:12 AM
3:12 AM
Monday, February 8, 2010
most awesomest book i have EVER read. yet. anythings. maybe in this month.
but this one's by meg cabot, and its really cute. set in the olden days, with those shakespeareish words. but once you get use to it. i think it was really really cute. which made me wonder.
the century before us had their, big skirts and weird ass image of beautiful.
asian women then had to bound their feet, europen had to wear tight tight corsets, some thai women had to wear those long neck braces and some of them even had gigantic earring holes.
the image of being beautiful is not excatly what we think of now. now, i guess people look at a girl's face and has already decided whether she is beautiful or not. people often ask me this : does my ass look big in this? am i prettier than her or her?
i guess my answer will always be. yes, your prettier. no, your ass doesn't look big in this.
i don't feel as if i am lying. because i guess everyone is beautiful. in their own way. sometimes beauty doesn't have to just exsist outside. it can be inside. and as long as you yourself know that you're beautiful. that's all that really matters :)
for me, i don't personally think i'm beautiful. because i look in the mirror and i think, vanessa, you have a huge nose. and your eyes are too small. and you mouth is huge. but then again, i think again and realised. doesn't matter if i am ugly. as long as i'm a good person. its all that matters.
for this blog entry to be published is extremely weird. because not only have i never discussed online about how i feel about myself. i've really never thought about putting it into words. beauty can't be explained. nor can it be artificially created. i think as long as you're a generous and kind person. you're beautiful.
and one more. LOVE LOVE LOVE. nadal :)
but this one's by meg cabot, and its really cute. set in the olden days, with those shakespeareish words. but once you get use to it. i think it was really really cute. which made me wonder.
the century before us had their, big skirts and weird ass image of beautiful.
asian women then had to bound their feet, europen had to wear tight tight corsets, some thai women had to wear those long neck braces and some of them even had gigantic earring holes.
the image of being beautiful is not excatly what we think of now. now, i guess people look at a girl's face and has already decided whether she is beautiful or not. people often ask me this : does my ass look big in this? am i prettier than her or her?
i guess my answer will always be. yes, your prettier. no, your ass doesn't look big in this.
i don't feel as if i am lying. because i guess everyone is beautiful. in their own way. sometimes beauty doesn't have to just exsist outside. it can be inside. and as long as you yourself know that you're beautiful. that's all that really matters :)
for me, i don't personally think i'm beautiful. because i look in the mirror and i think, vanessa, you have a huge nose. and your eyes are too small. and you mouth is huge. but then again, i think again and realised. doesn't matter if i am ugly. as long as i'm a good person. its all that matters.
for this blog entry to be published is extremely weird. because not only have i never discussed online about how i feel about myself. i've really never thought about putting it into words. beauty can't be explained. nor can it be artificially created. i think as long as you're a generous and kind person. you're beautiful.
and one more. LOVE LOVE LOVE. nadal :)
♥babyee
1:26 AM
1:26 AM
Saturday, February 6, 2010
haha. cute :) why couldn't TOP be there?
anyways. just a quickie just to say that i'm reading and working and talking.
MULTITASKING!!!!!!! who says i can't?
HUHUHUHUH?
and i'm still not over nadal btw. i'm actually reading a Spain travel book for english wr. weird huh? <3
♥babyee
2:42 AM
2:42 AM
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
http://au.sports.yahoo.com/tennis/news/article/-/6748740/nadal-slide-murray
heartbroken.
but he'll catch up.!
ahaha. and i just realised something. he's bday's on the 3rd of june. AHAHAHA.
why do i always obsess over guys that have their bdays on june?
heartbroken.
but he'll catch up.!
ahaha. and i just realised something. he's bday's on the 3rd of june. AHAHAHA.
why do i always obsess over guys that have their bdays on june?
♥babyee
2:16 AM
2:16 AM
haha. the STUPIDEST thing happened to me today. and i swear, i'm laughing at myself right now. it was. THAT. dumb. i left my maths textbook. again. somewhere. lost. in the big wide world.
but no problems, i've only gotten it today so i left it at school. somewhere. and this year 12 chick picked it up and gave it to louise. and louise gave it to me :)
so its all good. but the stupidest thing that happened was that i was so worried about the maths book i forgot i was suppose to get off at btown today. so instead, i got off at sevo. and had to catch a train back to btown >.>
i've had my exercise of the week.
oh and. special mention to navodhya, anna c and shira, if that's how you spell her name. birthday chicks :)
i'm excited about valentine's day this year, not just that fact its a day for love. but that fact that its also the day for chinese new year. so everyone's happy.
and... i'm still not over nadal >.> OMGAH.
x
but no problems, i've only gotten it today so i left it at school. somewhere. and this year 12 chick picked it up and gave it to louise. and louise gave it to me :)
so its all good. but the stupidest thing that happened was that i was so worried about the maths book i forgot i was suppose to get off at btown today. so instead, i got off at sevo. and had to catch a train back to btown >.>
i've had my exercise of the week.
oh and. special mention to navodhya, anna c and shira, if that's how you spell her name. birthday chicks :)
i'm excited about valentine's day this year, not just that fact its a day for love. but that fact that its also the day for chinese new year. so everyone's happy.
and... i'm still not over nadal >.> OMGAH.
x
♥babyee
12:15 AM
12:15 AM
Monday, February 1, 2010
ahaha. i know. the Australian open is finished now, but i still can't get over it. not yet, anyways. i will soon. i hope D:
i don't wanna talke about tennis for another year, just to wait for the next australian open. maybe i'll go with the winter olympics. :L
anyways, just a little blog about the " thing" that i LOVE most atm. Rafael Nadal :D
i know, most of you probably reading this is probably thinking, omgah. here she goes again. but believe me. this will probably be this years ONLY and LAST blog about him. its a shame he's like 23 and has a hot girlfriend and speaks crap english. but i could totally live with that :L
AHAHAHAH
FEDERER WON! lol.
but on to 2010, new school year, and i'm pretty happy with everything's going atm. i would probably want the new girl to talk more. but it doesn't matter. the fact that i may have crap teachers will NOT stop me from getting good marks! :)
and my 'curly" hair was NOT excatly what i wanted it to be. now i know why people want straight hair.
oh wells.
till next blog entry.
x
♥babyee
2:24 AM
2:24 AM